Dreaming on 2010
It’s been a pleasure to finally meet you; you have brought me some good moments placed in pictures under my bed and horrible, terrible and gross ones my life. According to my horoscope, it wasn’t supposed to be this way.
But everything has an end and I guess an end isn’t always pretty or glamorous, It must be that the end has a partnership with horror, every time that I have experienced an end, oh well, needless to say that I have succeed to get out of it but with a lot of struggle.
2010 was supposed to be filled with loved which I have experienced until January 4th 2010, the day my life turned around, you left, yeap! And then came back and then you were gone again, I gained so much experienced from what I went thought this year and also a few pounds.
But, I know that it had to happen for a reason, to bring me pain maybe or just to wake me up from the longest dream I ever been.
Good things happened in between the months and I had fun, tonsss of fun, that is what you didn’t like about me, being spontaneous,
Summer 2010 took my breath out, I had the most romantic summer since the one I had in 2008, it was like a dream come true, I felt 12 again, hiding in the dark, under the sheets, and the smell of the moon that was present every night of our dream. We had an amazing time but it turned to be only a dream because every time I woke up, I realized that it was all a big fat lie.
Pulgas has been my best friend during all this time; I cannot imagine my life without him.
Besides that, during the summer you came back with extra baggage named Brend, you tried to make it happen again but thanks to my savior I didn’t even try to follow your advice.
Lo nuestro tiene comienso y tuvo final.
I remember the night I said that, I was so sure that I wanted you out of my life, 03/01 was the worst moment I had in my life when I felt alone and homeless. After that I decided to stay away from you and not to keep as a friend, because friends don’t hurt you that way.2010 made a deep whole in my life and heart, everything is not related to money or stability , we deserved to be loved too, but love is not easy to find, I guess that's the reason why i got my heart broken twice in 2 months this year. It was a huge struggle to recupearte from that severe injured but I finally did it. I cried myself to sleep , beleiving that my pain will go away, well it didn't.
I had to Learn my lesson and be serious about what was going to happen in my life , I wanted to get up and keep going but the weight of my tears woulndt let me. I remeber taking 4 days off, I went to dumbo and sat alone, I felt good , no presure, it was all calm, that was when I realized that's how I wanted to feel: calm . I didn't want to fall one more time for some other individual who was going to say lies and make me pretend that Hrwas in love.
Summer came and there it was, some type of weird love again, it was a silly way to say thank you and hey we might like each other but the distance makes a huge difference.
It was an amazing time, I still close my eyes and think about it , it brings smile to face everytime I pictured you in the house, it was si innocent,
Then afterwards, there you are, the one that has brought me light since 2007, no other way to describe you if not as a libra, i have never had that type of friendship before
Pero lo nuestro tiene conienso pero no final.
I think,you remeber when I have mentioned that I wanted calm in my life. Well there was a lot of calm but specially tons of kaos,
I am believer, a lover, a passionate person, and I am looking for the same in life, so far, 2010 has been an amazing experienced, and a crazy trip, I feel like if I‘ve been riding the cyclone in Coney island for like a year already . It’s so old, you end up with bruises all over your body, the worst part is that if won’t make a stop so I can get off, that’s how 2010 made me feel
To be continued..
